Rewind, 3 years. Oil executive travelling the world, living the corporate dream with everything coming so easily for me. And then BANG, suddenly everything is difficult, getting up, having a shower, being around people and the hardest thing of all…living. I had been hit with the depression freight train. And it left me lying in broken pieces on the side of the tracks begging for the train to come back and finish the job. It wasn’t a pretty picture and so unexpected. I literally almost didn’t make it out alive. I’d like to say I fought to get out but depression takes the fight right out of you. So my family fought for me. They won the big battle and then bit by bit I started putting the pieces of myself back together. The war is not and may never be won though. Humpty Dumpty didn’t go back together the same way she was when she fell. Maybe not worse nor better, just different and unable to travel on the same road I was on. My first love was music. I have played and written music all my life. Through my healing process I started to write more and more. I wanted to write music that was relatable to other people and also offer hope for those still lying on the side of those tracks. One day someone heard my songs and suggested I do something with them. Ummm, okay. Do what exactly? Songs pour out of me like water. I could write one a day. Whether they are hits or not is another question. Which is why I am doing this challenge. I would like to develop my craft and get connected to a song writing community so that I can get my music heard, developped and played by other people. Right now the only person it’s healing is me. I’d like that to change.
My experience in the challenge thus far has been a little intimidating. Most specifically in regards to demos and demo production. I have lots of songs that I am very proud of but I have been so busy writing that I haven’t worked on proper recordings. Most of the other participants seem to have that part handled. I hope this does not take away from my music too much.
As far as progress in the challenge, I have been forced to play catch up but this is a good thing. I now have a blog lol and am now motivated to work on that long overdue website. I am already writing the 1st challenge songs in my head and am just a few days away from turning them into a rough draft of a song.
I have never co-written before as I am comfortable with writing both lyrics and melody. And most of my songs come so quickly to me that they are almost complete before a single chord is played. Mostly though I have just been a big chicken :-). I would love to co-write as I want to expand my styles and ideas. I have reached out to some members who I feel have a similar sound and am excited to work with them if they’re willing to give it a try.
The biggest challenge so far is keeping up with all the Facebook posts lol. I am also feeling pressure to get more professional, on the outside, fast. What I mean by that is catching up with commercially branding myself, rather than staying shut in and writing all the time. It is clear I cannot just write music. I need to record some good demos and start using social media to market myself and my music.
There’s healing in the water, there’s healing in the music.